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Wednesday, August 11, 2010 | 11:00 PM READ, may be to Y O U ! oh well, it hasn't been good. why is happiness so short term? he knows life hasn't been that well for me, so he nvr fails to make me smile 24/7 even laugh like some insane girl. friends are friends. he nvr even mentioned anything as in he nvr asked what's going on.in the day, it was all about fun. late at night its all about htht. i cried, i smiled, i laughed. he pats on my head and said, "everything will be over. u have friends who are by your side. just cry your heart out. this whole disaster has to be over sooner or later, trust me! bear in mind, u've me." the mesmerizing smile he has i will never forget! (: not a friend who knows every single bit about my life. we dun update each other about our lives all the time. but he's really a great, nice friend. he told me a good boyfriend is someone who loves you inside out, and also your best friend, admits when he does something wrong cos he feels guilty. he said i should find a good boyfriend. lol. that was what he told me after i updated him. awww, im glad to have known this on-off friend. he wanted me to thank those who have once been by my side, be it whether things are different or the same now. ok, not that i remember for the past like 19+ years. but i do rmb those which happened recently maybe more of this year. okay, i dun have to courage to thank these friends in msn, one by one. i dunno why. could be cos im being held back, could be cos .. i dunno. like wouldn't it be so weird if i go, "hey! thank you!" in msn. i think they will go HUH?! ok, serious now. i dunno if you guys will get to read this but u may never know you're one of them who i wanna thank. really. ok la, i know you will know who you are. ok. thanks for being there when your existence actually helps a lot. be it listening to me whine, complain and then you get frustrated, still, thanks a lot. i may not be a perfectly nice friend but i really do wna thank you all for being there. i may suck being a friend,i may have someone who's against me, but being there for me matters a lot. trying to make me happy knowing that im down, trying to give me advices, i will rmb. u're a nice friend to me cos i tell you what im unhappy about, cos you were the ones i thought of when i was down. a few im thinking of now but i just dun have the courage to text/msn you! dun ask me why, i dunno. i hope whoever im thinking of now get to read this. even if you've read i also dunno. that sucks. but i do hope you know im referring to you all. okk *i hope* a big t h a n k y o u ! :D |