RUN BABY RUN!

its 144am now and i cant slp.
ive work tml.
im just trying to keep myself real bz, cos ive been thinking too much.
knowing the impossibility, i still
knowing the isolation, i still
knowing everything, i still

what am i thinking man! maybe someone shld gimme some confidence. i lack it, like ALOT.

&& whats wrong with dating ur best friend's best friend? ive said enough.

im so gg to find a high pay job. yes got lobang! yeahh!!
all thanks to J! =D

FRI.
yeah holiday and out with gals, Ethel and Hwee Ee! yeah fun! ((: Hwee ee's friend, Aloycious was there too! chatting with them was v fun! heheh!
ok. we camwhored! we have decided to leave 2 days out in dec. one day for us gals shopping and another day with the guys, out and chill. ok but need someone to plan too! lol.
after that, worked awhile and went pub?

pics. ((:

END. ((:

Halfway Gone?!

nth much actually.
finally, handed in UCCD! oh yeah!
gotta start revising and i hope i wont procrastinate. my gpa gta be pulled up this time round.
tdy dinner at Raffles City SC. at some place. im so gg over to have their delicious-looking tarts!!
phone dropped and whenever i made a call, or received a call, halfway thru, my phone switches off itself! time for a new phone leh!!

3 of us! =D we 3 had braces before. the-braces-gals! ((:
ok, vampire diaries time! ((:

short one.
chilled with Bobby. suppose to report for work but we escaped. im so gna chiong this dec! i swear. dun leave me behind, Bobby!!

dinner with parents.

anw, TO YOU. maybe im not good with words. i dunno how to comfort u but i will be there if u need someone to talk to. i will lend u my shoulder though i know im not the best candidate! )): hahah! no matter what happens, just rmb, things will eventually turn out fine, things will have its way out. cheer up k? smile aplenty cos u look pretty when u smile widely!! ((: JIAYOU.

ITOY, Every now and then?

this week was rather alright.
MON, went home after sch.
TUES, headed to cityhall. wanted to do uccd but ended up slacking at Coffee Bean. den dinner at Astons.
WED, out with Jerry, Brenda and Patrick. Dinner at Ikea! yeah! bumped into Jimmy.

THURS, went queenstown to get someone's shoes.
FRI, out with Jerry and Jermaine- Orchard. Lunch at vivo with yixiu((:

drunk ppl are so scary. on my way home jnow, a drunken actually grabbed my hand, pulled me and refusing to let go. like wth. pain la, my wrist. SO SCARY HARRY(kl and xw taught me this!)man! lol. ok la. passer by came to the rescue cos i was going against the drunken.

anyway, life's pretty boring and some things which i got to know, made me wanna be a nicer person. i dun usually talk to him but now, i feel bad. its not cos i pity him ok its cos i thought he's e person i thought he will be but it is not! at least i know and i wanna be a nicer person.

and, Jerry and I were talking how we wish we look better here and there! )):

no, im not silly!

been too happy lately, finding sth to emo over. sounds crazy! just kidding!
so sian!

addicted to GG3 and Vampires Diaries! why Stefan has to leave Elena?

current mood : extremely pissed.
sian another week has ended. mst's coming to haunt me! why time flies so fast?

FRI(13th): lunched with same usual peeps, X, K and M. oh well, they gotta leave early for home. so i met up with ah bobby! shopped! sian! hahah! its 1217 now. reached home not long ago. anw, bumped into love relations tcher. talked a little. hahah! she rmbs me! but well, she knows who am i. hahah good ok! some tcher dun even know my name ok!
THURS(12th): watched 2012 !! quite touching as well. A pretty omg 2 and a half hr movie. watched with same peeps? or rather a slight change. no mingyan but derrick hahah! xiewei and kenglai too. the song is nice by ADAM LAMBERT!! ((:

WED(11th): shopped with ah bobby! den went to look for the guys for dinner the end.
TUES(10th): Home Straight Home ((:
MON(9th): after sch, movie with same usual ppl leh. xiewei, kenglai, mingyan. My Sister's Keeper. i didnt really cry but tears were all welled up in my eyes. i managed to hold them back! i have the story book so i already knew the story. if i didnt rmb wrongly, had dinner at Astons.

back from singing/high-ing session! !
sch ended pretty early den headed to ubi with guys, xw and kl and dare; my and i waited for them while they took the test. how cool. den headed off to tanah merah safra for singing session. den home. see la, my movie. im not addicted. just that i feel like watching. lol. hahah. if u know me well, ive alw wanted to watch, die die wna watch when im feeling down. i was. but didnt manage to watch! andhor, my make-up v thick meh? lol. someone told me, make up is needed to look presentable.

& i dunno whats wrong with my eyeliner! it smudges all the time. im still using the same brand eversince i started using eyeliner! damn! now, im changing to liquid. byebye pen/marker till i find a better one!

going broke soon i guess. hope i get back my few hundreds like soon!

there are times i feel so sian abt everything. i pretended everything's ok. i just feel lousy thats all. i shouldnt be bothered but i still do. thats me. sometimes i dunno what to do. dunno how to behave. i mean afterall im a gal. i will think deeper. i wanted not to care, but i couldnt. arrhh, box me like now? just like i alw ask myself, why. couldnt find a definite ans to it even till now.

and doesnt mean i work means im loaded. i dun earn much cos of the frequency i actually work. once a week. with less than 6 hrs. pathetic sia. how i wish i can chiong. but then, i alw skip work on sun! ):

after sch, lunched with XW and KL.
Spongebobby joined after that for shopping.! think guys CANNOT follow we gals when we shop. they practically stood outside the shop and waited for us while we tried on the clothes. hahah! but they are great accompanies anyway! they brought us laughters. ((:
walked into suntec. this RUSSIAN guy pinched my cheek! whatthehell! lol. ok so my cheek actually attracts attention! lol.

i just dun uds people at times. do i look so poor or do i or rather us look like i could not afford those stuffs? not as if they are THAT ex. whatthehell. not once but a few times. i told Spongebobby that i will make sure i wear fbt, tee and slipper into prada or whatever shops and purchase their stuff! i loathe it when ppl despise on me, yo!

ok! gtg do fm tut! reached home at 1130. thought mummy would scold and nag but she didnt.

back to blogging? i just blogged on mon. hehh((:
what was happening for this week after sch.

MON: as what mentioned in my previous post, out with AH BOBBY! ((: another one ok, spongebobby?
TUES: dba09 outing. dinner at xin wang, marina sq. and pics? ok, i admit the unglam pic of mine is very unglam and UGLY. OMG, all ZY's fault!!
WED: supposed to work at safra but gave it a miss. dinner with XW and KL (K&K) tgt with AH BOBBY! I WAS A GLUTTON! even guys were shocked, yo! i dun normally eat so much and i always have leftovers when im with the guys. but with BOBBY, the portion i swallowed into my stomach were WOW to the guys ((: i didnt do that on purpose. i just dunno why ((:
THURS: work with GUYS. tiring day and my right eye turned red. damn!
FRI: lunch with XW and KL before heading to MY's house. LATE leh! ibn-ed a little and off for dinner and k! wanted to snap pics during our k session but phone's running out of batt!

so thats my week excluding weekends! ((: everyday reached home earliest 11pm plus. thurs 12 plus sia! hah! other than tues, reached home super early, at 10. heard Jennifer's Body not nice. SO, i have decided to give it a miss!

half a day spent with SpongeBobby! ((:
run here and there and finally settled down at Astons,cityhall for lunch/dinner!
saw joanne peh with her angmoh bf? she's pretty, tall and skinny, yo!

shopped awhile and chilled at starbucks! before that we neoprint-ed! yeah!
no movies for us to catch so camwhored in toilet!

last pic, my fav pic of the day! (:

xoxo, suasua.

these days ive been in pretty good mood. or perhaps tdy&ytd?
so how i wish it remains like this for long and never ends.
there are awesome moments for us to rmb and treasure.
never let go of these moments.
you may never know things may happen in a gd way or rather the way u imagined/wanted it to be.
ive tried and am still trying though.at least it was sth uve gone thru.
whatever it ends up to be, take it with a smile. you'll find urself much happier.

lol first week of sch, GONE.
pretty fun i would say. maybe its cos of the friends around me(:
tut were all self-introducing. tdy was MR. oh well, tutor said the impression i gave her was i look very siao sa! LOL. den i got approachable and friendly from most of the ppl in class. sad right. haha ok la. DUN CARE. i lost self control these days, smack me!

tdy sch ended at 12. headed to cityhall with XW, KL, MY. ate Astons and watched SURROGATES, my 2nd time. went arcade for bball. diff pairs for 2 times. paired with XW first den MY. ok, paiseh if i was rlly lousy. ((:

u gta know, everything's so not right. i chose to believe that it wasnt referring to me. at the same time, i felt sad for everything. super. no idea why. and, why do i have that unapproachable face? k la, i look qian da, ok?

TO the Spongbob w X-factor, listening to the boring me, complaining and whining abt everything, thanks leh!
suasua didnt do anything but why it ended up this way. thinking back, flashing back.

suasua is down.
spongebob leh ?!?!

suasua's eyes also down!
suasua doesnt want to turn blind

short one before i head to bed (like real!)
sch was pretty sian-sational but was alright. TDY after sch was heading down to PP, Kimage for a hair cut with guys. only KL and i had our hair cut. guys as in, X, D, K and M.
according to XW the hair now looks better compared to the previous cut. YEAH. the rest i nvr asked cos im afraid they disagree! LOL! was recommended to bleach/highlight my hair! i want. i want dyed hair leh! but im afraid i will look ah lian/unfriendly. ppl alw say that! )):
den dinner at MAC (yes, sinful) and we chatted and talked. and tadah, 10plus going 11pm alr. mom called and scolded me, not cos im gg home late but cos of 1)my messy room. 2)my bro. 3)unreasonable thinking. and of cos i raised my voice. aiya forget it, menopausing is scary!

ANW, my eye is so red now. and uncomfortable! dun tell me is infection. ok. gta rest my red eyes now )):
AND, IM F A T. I AM RIGHT? damn face. damn fats. )):

off from work! yeah! tml, 14/hr why not. last day of work before sch starts! and im continuing this job. (there's a reason behind it).

alright. i promised my younger cousin to give him a treat to B&J after his psle and i did, today!
so lunch was at Astons (yes, again and derrick was working) and then Starbucks, at The Cathay. den movie at PS. we caught IMAGINE THAT. haha not a bad movie. pretty funny. FUNNY PEOPLE was a waste of money. So, within a week or so i caught 3 movies. the above 2 and SURROGATES (a superb movie, trust me!)

nc16. m18. pg.
yeah tdy i turned totally BROKE. wth. earnedandgone! after movie, had to bring my cousin to meet his family. we ended up at Geylang for durian and we were so stuck with the choices(too many stalls).

ended work at 430! headed to orchard while jerry headed off to meet her friend for dinner.

caught Funny People. wah waste my money, i fell asleep. dunno if im slow or what, i couldnt get some jokes. wlao had to cab home! waste money!

oh well, try!
(edited)

TDY, 12 oct: initial plan was to hit the gym. but ended up sun tanning first which failed cos it started to drizzle. ):

maybe this [cropped]pic isnt that clear in showing how unevenly toned i am. i<3thisbikini. (:(:

SAT, 10 oct: stupid biker!
car gotta be sent for repair. all cos of biker's fault.
got rj the fred perry bag (149bucks) i showed in my previous entry. b r o k e? lol
had geylang's tuahwa. stayed over at mine. hoho. ~~i cried~~ lol. all rj's fault la. anw, Happy bdae, RJ. thanks for being my buddy cum sista. thanks for everything la huh. the talk we had was pretty funny! hehe! and i realised what kind of person i am. lol. Thanks, best buddy! (:

SUN, 11 oct: met up with Jerry and Patrick at The cathay. caught SURROGATES! NICE!!

andand, spent hell lot at MUJI. Bought Everlast bacpack too, finally a new bacpack! FRED PERRY DUN HAVE MY SHOE SIZE! DAMN! pls pls. pray hard that i can fit into size6!

and hor, ive tried, really. but dunno why. not meant to get so distracted.

andand, im so hooked to Vampire Dairies drama series! its nice, another twilight. (: been catching Fringe2, Gossip Girl 3. CSI's nice too! (:

byebye world! iwannasaybyetoSPtoo.

there are times u wonder why u strive so hard cos afterall there's still disappointment.
there are times u wonder what ure thinking of cos everything sucks ttm.

and now, im feeling so weird.
i wanna start afresh somewhere as long as its not here.
i wanna aim high but i cant cos i always fail.

RJ told me "things may happen the way u dun want them to be but we just gotta accept it even if we dunno where we have gone wrong. thats life. time is said to be the medicine, thats bullshit. you need to find a way yourself even if it is a super challenging maths ques. at least find out where have u gone wrong which left the maths ques unsolved."

lunch-ed. party world-ed, ion-ed, cafe-d.

lunched at The Cathay's Astons. wanted to catch a movie but to no avail.

J and I headed to int'l building for party world.

my fav pic of all! (: (:
we wanted to go geylang for tuahwa but hor we cant find any guys to go along lol.

ilovethis169. :D (: (: andimgoingtogetyouthisbag!loveit.

06 oct, tues
woke up with gastric pain. thought it would be better after consuming tuahwa but no! i had to end work and see a doc. the pain is killing me so much. even till now. i slept so much but it aint helping. no appetite ):

05 oct, mon

worked. the slack-iest day of work i swear.

timbre with gals after work.
i DRINK, DRANK but wasnt drunk. (though i was rather high and huip said she could imagine when im drunk)
Heinekein and cocktail. could feel my head throbbing but it was alright after awhile.
im real mad cos i wanna get drunk so badly recently. CRAVING: geylang's tauhwa! (: comingwed.comingwed.comingwed.

den work with jerry, hell boring at jurong safra.

P.S1 im loving the song knock you down. go listen alright (: my playlist has it too(:

P.S2. why am i so fat and why my face so cmi, so cui? comparisons.comparisons.comparison.
every part of me sucks like hell, isn't it?

ilovetheabovefour!

twistpolka.livejournal.com

3 oct, Sat.
off day! shopped at orchard! (:
got myself tops. from zara and fep. that agnes b wallet is so ex! ): Guess's is rather cheap. but didnt get. =.= Fred perry's and Burberry's not my type. sian wanna get a wallet also so difficult!
ANW, im getting that fred perry shoe! oh yeah, pls dun be gone ok! it will be mine for the next visit! (: ANDAND ive have new nickname. guess what? its sua-sua (sand in hokkien). damn -.= right? given by jerry's bludder, patrick. so awful.
tdy's luch was at crystal jade. dinner at sakae sushi. tml there's work!
pls dun be so unreasonable. asked me dun go to work bcos of him. wtshit. who's he man.i felt so pissed. its so f up. ive repeated so many times thats its not fair. i DO NOT get a single shit out of it. if i ever ask sth i wanted so much from you, would u even give it to me? its always a no.

2 oct, Fri.
a happening day. afternoon to evening, work at safra. heheh!
evening, bishan-ed. lol. for photoshoot. hmm. one word, im seriously FAT!
got a top from iris. thanks! (: and a tee. stylo-milo black vest?

ok after that was dinner and i-dunno-his-name guy drove us to serangoon near chompchomp for dessert! woo! lol. haha funny peeps eh! (: ok den home sweet home at ard 1230. initially i thought would be awkward but it was pretty fun and ok. haha! (:
trying to get my mind off it.

finally get to reach home even before the sky turns dark (:
work as usual too slack alr. and tpy guys are more friendly, i find.
and yep, mummy allows me to go for RTT le! see when im free, i'll head down to the centre. hopefully this time round, no procrastination. i hope!
might be moving to yck wembly residences.still nego-ing.
P.S I dun feel more relieved. i feel more scared. howhowhow. ttm if you're seeing this, i hope if everything's ok.

ok. mon i mentioned i met up with jia and yun. pics. (:

hehe ok. happy day.
work as usual. started early, ended early. i wanna chiong next few days alr. earn as much as possible. my fred perry? (: eh might be working at jap restaurant with jerry. hmm, mummy like dun like leh. she said one job only. aiya see how.

tml tpy. yeah can sit on sofa for whole day and slp (if possible). sian.
and after work, Ikea-ing with Jerry!! (: finally haha! i started the ikea thingy! haha!

TDY, met up with yun and jia. yeah. went the cathay hoping to catch a movie but nvr ): den we headed to astons for dinner! full till gg to burst anytime. den B&J after that! yeah. clever-er this time round, we shared. den home. was quite late alr.
sigh jia and I were complaining how tired are we of our lives. we siao la. talked abt dropping out of sch too. abit LOL. k la. pay v little ): cos i only work for short hours everyday. ):

bad news, nz trip cancelled all thanks to dad. Greece trip booked this coming dec but only my parents and bro gg cos i have vietnam. all thanks to dad again. wtshit.